2003

I was reflecting on how my life has changed in the years since I came back.

I came back in May/June 2003 - and i think it was possibly the lowest point for the nation (ravaged by SARS and the economy), it was also the lowest point for my family and because i chose to come back, it was the lowest point for my relationship.

I was far from God then because I was looking at my circumstances and I thought I needed to rely on my own strength. I need to do something with my life. I needed to support my loved ones, I needed to find a job which was practically impossible as people were getting retrenched and companies weren't hiring..

Thinking back, I was probably very down and quite depressed. I was able and willing but had no job so I spent most of my days doing housework and moping around... and I had to travel all the way to the library to get internet access.

I felt so helpless and so small.

And when I finally got a part time job at Yamaha as a receptionist, I was so grateful but then I got sacked after 2 weeks! On my first job! I couldn't believe it. I was so broken... But God was setting me up for something much better. He had to take me away from that situation so that I could come to a place of total reliance on HIM.

He had to take me away from that and He knew the only way was to sack me. Hahaha.

He did that so that I could start looking around for another job. And I did. Although it took me another 2 months in a crap recep job to get into my first real job... I knew it was His hand at work.

I thank God that even when I was down and ready to give up, He didn't give up on me. He was always there for me, opening doors of opportunities.

I was and still am so grateful that He placed me in a position to get wealth and to provide for my loved ones because He cares. He cares about what I care about.

So if you are at a place where every which way seems dark and you don't know which way to go, turn to Jesus.

He knows. He is able. And the best part is, He is willing.