To my friend

To my friend: We hooked up in 1994 and it was one of the funnest n bestest BFF relationships i've ever had! we were inseparable in JC...or so i thot...sniff*.

Jac
11:01pm September 13th

oh GOD! I realise i didn't say CONGRATS on your marriage...must've slipped my mind coz so distracted that i found u. Tell me more ley. how long were u dating before? when was the wedding? who is he? what did u do in melbourne? what u been doing since JC? But most important of all, even if u don't have time to fill me in, can u pls tell me what on earth happened all those years ago that came btwn us? I'm still totally bewildered till today, and it always left me feeling so confused coz one minute we were so close and the next we weren't even talking and u were with michelle and her frds :( did i do smthg bad? pls tell me. whatever it may be ok? for what it's worth i'm sorry, coz it really was a pity, to have our friendship end. sniff sniff.

k, hv a gd wknd! my no. is xxxx if u wanna sms or call anytime.


Me
7:50pm September 16th

And about us... i actually thought for a few days about what happened... and the wierdest thing is... I really can't remember!!! I dont think it was anything we did.. we were so close and I guess we needed some space.. but i dont know why we werent even talking??? really? Im sorry if i seem to have a memory lapse.. which i tend to have... but really, i think it may have been me - i tend to withdraw from people sometimes.. and i just didnt know myself that well then.. Im much more aware of my crazy temperament now..I wasn't very good at expressing myself.but hey, no worries.. everything's good.

but the biggest change about me isn't really all that... i think the most important thing that happened to me was/is that i became a Christian right before i met my husband... and that has definitely changed my life completely :)

I'll give you a ring one of these days? my husband's always travelling and when he's back, i try to spend as much time as possible with him :)

Jac, I'm sorry I never called. It was the bestest and funnest BFF relationship I had... thank you for your love and your friendship. I wish I had told you that in person.